This is my second Mother’s Day and it feels just as surreal as last year that this is “my day” now too. Sometimes I still can’t believe I’m a mom.
They say you never fully appreciate your own mom until you have a child. Well, I actually do feel like I appreciated my mom before having Sebastien. However, it’s been little things along the way so far that make me feel like I definitely understand my mom more now that I’m a mom myself.
When I was in kindergarten, I drew a picture of my mom as a stick figure with boats for shoes in front of a thin, squiggly rainbow and it was made into a plate. I’m not lying when I say my mom actually kept and used that plate for the next 20 years. As I grew up, I would sometimes laugh at her for still holding on to my weak drawing on a cheap ass plate, but now I finally understand why…
She treasured every gift I ever gave her because she cherished every moment that I showed her how much I love her.
That’s not all, so much more has started to make sense too.
I finally understand why sometimes she would cry for “no reason.” (For real, since becoming a mom, I cry so many more tears of happiness than I do tears of sadness!)
I also understand why when I hugged her she would continue to squeeze me tight even after I tried to let go. (I live for my son’s snuggles and I don’t want to think about a day where he won’t want to hug me.)
And I especially understand why she worried so much at times. (Oh gosh, there’s already so much to worry about and I worry about it all!)
One phrase that my mom repeated over and over to me growing up was, “You just won’t understand until you’re a mother!” Well, I’m very grateful that some of this is finally starting to click now. There are probably so many more ‘understanding mom moments’ to come, and I will probably always flash back to her voice in my head when they do. I’m sorry, Mama! I get it now! (She’s probably laughing.)
And thank you! I’m just so incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful, loving, supportive, and patient mama. Happy Mother’s Day, Mom!
As well as a Happy Mother’s Day to ALL mamas! The brand new moms, the longtime moms, the moms-to-be, the moms at heart, the moms in the hearts of others, the moms of angels, and the moms in heaven.
xo – Bri
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